Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Hats, Bats, and a Sketchbook

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Ok, I am much better today. I actually felt better immediately after I wrote that post, although I regret pushing that all on you guys and my crush. So today is much better. The sun is shining (finally). I took a long walk in the pouring rain, aside from ruining my tights, it was a very good experience. By the time I came home I was holding my head a little higher.

One of the great things about London are all the specialty paper shops. Japan was a little taste of this (although their paper was alot more elaborately decorated). London is covered in little and big papershops. If you know me well, you are aware of my undying love for paper and packaging. The best treasure I brought home from Italy was... a wax stamp with my initial on it. I love paper and everything wrapped in it, made with it or used to make it. So since I was feeling low I went out and bought some paper and a sketchbook.

Whenever I begin a new semester or new class I always (ALWAYS) freak out right before starting because I have lot of ideas but have a hard time deciding how to arrange them so I can move on. Throughout high school, my first painting of the term was always about anxiety. After I did it, I was able to move on to other things. I can remember having a low point at the beginning of all my college terms aswell. London has been different thought, I already did my anxiety piece and I am still feeling it. Maybe all this London business is the anxiety performance piece before I get on with the rest of my life.

Monday, April 25, 2005

England's Saddest Girl

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I don't know why I can't shake this depression. It is seeming to get worse and more frustrating as the days go by. This week has been some of the worst I have experienced here. It is really the most terrible experience I have ever had. The strange part is every day I find things I genuinely like or love about London but every night I slip deeper and deeper into the doldrums. What is going on? Why is it I hate it here even though everyone told me I would love it. I want to like it, I want to be having a good time but I seems not to be something I can force on myself. Really, London has stressed me out more than anything ever has. I've never had so many anxiety attacks in such a short period of time. Fortunately, I have learned some important things about myself now that I am in this situation.
I am definitely a homebody. I like having all of my things, hobbies and hard-earned friends within driving or even communication distance. I like to be able to go home and visit my parents and my dog whenever I feel like it. I have found a deep love for cooking. But maybe thats because I have no other hobbies here. I really cannot have a temporary situation like this - where I can't even buy little things because I won't be able to take them home with me.
I guess it doesn't help that I haven't made any friends this term and the one I do have is one who stresses me out on a constant basis. All I want is to come home - I seem to have lost all ambition to go do anything here, all I do is sleep and watch TV; I've lost my creative drive. I can only hope I become normal again when I get home. (sorry to vent on you all)

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Hey Everyone... I've a query.

Ok, So last term my instuctor picked a theme and everyone worked off it taking it in (very) different angles. It was "Travel". This term my new instructors have not picked a theme so I need 2 new themes. I would love it if you would post a good one in a comment. I might stick with travel but I would like a new one if possible. Get that noodle to work...

Also, Is there anyone else out there who uses Hello to send pictures from Picasa to Blogger? I has not been working for me lately. This has happened before when Hello randomly stopped working for a few hours but it had been days now and I want to share all my pretty vay-cay picture with you.

Don't forget to give me a theme!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

At long last: My Journeys

So its been a while and for that I apologize. To begin where I left...

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After the fashion show episode, I took a few days to myself to get ready for 19 days of travel. It was wonderfully refreshing to have no responsibilies or immediate tasks at hand. I took a few walks; I had time to appreciate the beauty in the grounds of London. I had to say goodbye to my new friend, Angela as well as my roommates, Meryl, Cristina, and Jackie.

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Soon after my other roommate, Kacie, and I boarded a plan to Nice, France to start our 6 day European vacation. Nice was beautiful. Clay tile rooves and stucco, rock beaches, palms, narrow alleys guiding you by warmly painted walls, shuttered windows, and postcard stands. if you get the chance, go there instead of Paris. Just be weary... we were endlessly harassed and followed. After a few days there we headed out to Milan Italy by way of train.

The train was one of my favorite parts of the trip. We traveled along the mediteranean sea coast and it was a beautiful sunny day. The train was quite warm. Two Italians and their big smelly dalmation took the seats next to (and foot space underneath) us. "Its alright.. He has ticket. See?" The trolley man with his cart of snacks worked his was down our car. He was an older, slightly out of shape Benicio Del Toro. He wore a heavy train worker uniform and kept franticly wiping the beads of sweat off his brow with his hanky while scrambling together peoples orders. It felt like a staged moment. A little to humorous and scripted to be real life. To bad my picture of it did not come out.

After around 5hrs on the train we arrived in Milan, Italy. As we stepped out of the station onto the busy, slummy street, we had a terrible urge to just run back in and catch the next train to Venice. Milan is horrible. The people there just stared us down. One even approached us asking for a tissue and when we offered it he laughed and ran back to his buddies. Not to mention is was Easter so absolutely nothing was open and everyone who was anyone was hanging around the only thing to see there, Duomo Cathedral. The crowds were so thick you could not walk without stepping into someone elses shoes. We almost had Kacie's credit card stolen. I responded with a punch to his neck with my elbow (Inspired the by heroics of Kathyn Chalmers). We hated Milan so much we returned to the hotel early and read books for the rest of the night. The next day I returned to the duomo in jeans for a quick look (the day before we had tried to go in but no skirts above the knee allowed) before heading to the train station (also known as the den of the desperate... there is a dense rain of beggers who will endlessly harrass you). Also to lay the cherry on the sunday, as we walked to the train station no less than two men in front of us just whipped it out and peed on the sidewalk while looking at us. gross.

The train to Venice was also good. Its amazing how many castles there are just hanging out atop hills surrounded by old villages in the middle of nowhere. So picturesque.

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Venice was a welcome tourist town after the reality of Milan. I spend the whole first day walking around with my nose in the air, enjoying the beautiful architecture. Its funny how nothing really looks like how you imagined it would... except Venice. Seemingly, it is untouched by modern design. The whole city is like the ancient European Mackinaw Island. No cars. Only boats. Mostly we shopped and wandered about. Surprisingly, the food was terrible and expensive but the scenery more than forgave that. On the last night we could hear a live show echoing around. After investigation we found it. It was a reggae, ska, jazz band singing in Italian and English. They were alright; we stayed till the end when we realized it was a benefit for the communist party. Venetian elections were the next day. They have boats for everything is Venice. All the deliveries are by boats, individuals all have boats, there are the famous Gondoles, taxi boats, and my favorite... bus boats. They are huge long boats that wade along the grand canal. Their engines make terrifing sounds if you know what a boat should sound like but they sound sturdy and just like they should considering how they are driven. Venetian bus drives know speeds: full speed forward and full speed back. When they dock they come up fast, just as the seem over shot the dock they throw it into reverse and ram into the loading bus stop. The dock whines and groans, shifting under the pressure and all those about to board are tossed about, then quickly resituate, grab their things and bull rush on board.

The flight back went without hitch. I stayed in a Hostel in London before heading to America on the First.

(Pictures coming soon! Check back!)